At the beginning of the year, I had such drive, such focus. I thought for sure 2010 would be the year to complete my goals. Little did I know, 2010 would be the year that made me question it all and second guess myself. I can't wait for New Years Eve because I plan to kick 2010 out the door. We know 2010 was the year where I struggled with major life decisions, faced numerous medical pitfalls and my own mortality, along with debating every aspect of my life.
For the moment, I want to focus on the goals I set at the beginning of 2010, before I knew life would take a drastic turn.
1. I had planned four trips this year, but only took two. I went to Salt Lake City for a genealogy conference and spent the fall in Florida for my mother's birthday. I enjoyed every moment of my time with family and friends. When I bailed on the birthday trip this summer, Michelle flew up to the Fort to visit instead, providing me with many memories of our girl's weekend.
2. I canceled my plans for the writing conference, therefore did not meet with an agent, but it worked to my benefit. During my bleak period, I tried my hand at a new form of genre writing, in which up to this point, my reviewer is enjoying what I've completed. I also participated and completed (aka won) the NanoWrimo contest this fall.
3. I didn't make new friends this year, but I did join a knitting group. I still hope to join other groups in the future and expand my horizons, but I have to say I feel very satisfied in my friendships. Without my wonderful friends this year, I honestly wouldn't have survived. They got me through many dark moments, attended appointments with me, and handled many late night calls. I have the most amazing friends in the world. They are family to me. NYE is special this year because I plan to spend it with my two best gals, who made my life bearable by supporting me this past year. The only thing missing on NYE will be Michelle.
4. My final goal was to make a decision involving children. I feel comfortable with the medical decision that was required of me this year. It wasn't an easy decision, but I can live with it. I may change my mind some day, but considering I had no other option this year, I am accepting. I can't deny my heart breaks during certain moments, like when Cheyenne says she loves me or David snuggles up to me for hugs or I see pictures of Ian, Zoe, and Audrey, but I made the best decision for myself.
Last year's goals weren't met, but they taught me a good lesson. I know this post seems a little melancholy and it is. 2010 was a year where I learned a lot about myself and the world around me. It was not an easy journey by any means, but I'm pleased with the ending. I'll think hard on my plans for 2011 because it will be an amazing year.
Monday, December 27, 2010
Monday, December 13, 2010
100 Truths
Stole this from Crystal. These are my answers!
1. Real name: Melissa Christeen ...
2. Nickname: Missy, but try getting me to answer to it
3. Zodiac Sign: Cancer
4. Male or female: Female
5. Elementary School: Bellamy or the Red, White, and Blue School (those in Tampa know)
6. High School: Leto
7. College: It's great to be a Florida Gator. Oh, and South Florida for my Masters
8. Hair color: Currently red, but who knows next week
9. Tall or short: tall
10. Fat or skinny: perfect
11. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans girl
12. Phone or Camera: Camera. I have to capture the memory.
13. Health freak: I don’t watch what I eat, but I do workout.
14. Orange or Apple: I so miss fresh oranges off the tree. Sigh!
15. Do you have a crush on someone? Always
16. Eat or Drink: I love food.
17. Piercings: Terrified of needles
18. Pepsi or Coke: Can’t tell the difference
HAVE YOU EVER?
19. Been in an airplane: Yes, but it still terrifies me
20. Been in a relationship: Um, married more than once, what do you think
21. Been in a car accident: Yes, let’s not discuss
22. Been in a fist fight: I’ve punched someone but have never been the recipient.
23. First piercing: Fear of needles
24. First best friend: I kissed Jose when I was 3, but I’m going to say Staci.
25. First award: No clue. Mom, do you know?
26. (this one was missing)
27. First word: No clue. Mom, help!
29. Last person you talked to in person: Dawne
30. Last person you texted: Duh, Michelle
31. Last person you watched a movie with: James
32. Last food you ate: cereal
33. Last movie you watched: HP & the Deathly Hallows
34. Last song you listened to: Set You Free by The Black Keys
35. Last thing you bought: Michelle's x-mas gift
36. Last person you hugged: Delia
FAVE:
37. Food: Did I mention I like food, all kinds.
38. Drinks: caffeinated
39. Bottoms: No comment
40. Flower: Lily
41. Animal: No comment since both of my pets are nearby
42. Colors: Purple
43. Movies: The Usual Suspects, Twelve Angry Men, Vertigo (most Hitchcock films), Titanic, L.A. Confidential, Pride & Prejudice, I could go on, but will stop
44. Subjects: Books
(Put an X in the brackets if yes)
45. [x] fallen in love with someone.
46. [x] celebrated Halloween.
47. [x] had your heart-broken.
48. [] went over the minutes/texts on your cell phone.
49. [x] had someone question my sexual orientation.
51. [] got pregnant.
52. [] had an abortion.
53. [x] did something I regret.
54. [x] broke a promise.
55. [x] hid a secret.
56. [x] pretended to be happy
57. [x] met someone who changed your life.
58. [x] pretended to be sick.
59. [x] left the country.
60. [x] tried something you normally wouldn’t try and liked it.
61. [x] cried over the silliest thing.
62. [x] ran a mile.
63. [x] went to the beach with your best friend.
64. [x] got into an argument with your friends.
65. [x] hated someone.
66. [x] stayed single for a whole year.
CURRENTLY:
67. Eating: Not at the moment
68. Drinking: Not at the moment
69. Listening to: heater
70. Sitting/Laying: Sitting
71. Plans for today: work, go home workout
72. Waiting for: weekend
YOUR FUTURE:
73. Want kids? No
74. Want to get married? Already am
75. Career: Stay in my current career
WHICH IS BETTER IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?:
76. Lips or eyes? It’s comparing apples and oranges
77. Shorter or taller? Taller
78. Romantic or spontaneous? romantic
79. Nice stomach or nice arms? I love good arms
80. (this one’s missing too)
81. Hook-up or relationship? So dependent on the person
82. Looks or personality? personality, we all age in the end
HAVE YOU EVER:
83. Lost glasses/contacts: Lost my glasses on the hiking trail in New Zealand
84. Snuck out of a house: Shockingly, no
85. Held a gun/knife for self-defense: I’ve been taught how to use them, but thankfully have never had the need.
86. Killed somebody: only in my writing
87. Broken someone’s heart: Yes
88. Been in love: Yes
89. Cried when someone died: Obviously, yes
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
90. Yourself: I don’t deny I have an ego concerning certain things
91. Miracles: Yes
92. Love at first sight: Lust at first sight.
93. Heaven: Yes
94. Santa Claus: Absolutely
95. Sex on the first date: Yes, it all depends
96. Kiss on the first date: Absolutely
TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? I’m content by myself at the moment
98. Do you know who your real friends are? Yes, they helped through this summer
99. Do you believe in God? Whole heartedly
100. Post as 100 truths? About to hit Pulblish Post
1. Real name: Melissa Christeen ...
2. Nickname: Missy, but try getting me to answer to it
3. Zodiac Sign: Cancer
4. Male or female: Female
5. Elementary School: Bellamy or the Red, White, and Blue School (those in Tampa know)
6. High School: Leto
7. College: It's great to be a Florida Gator. Oh, and South Florida for my Masters
8. Hair color: Currently red, but who knows next week
9. Tall or short: tall
10. Fat or skinny: perfect
11. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans girl
12. Phone or Camera: Camera. I have to capture the memory.
13. Health freak: I don’t watch what I eat, but I do workout.
14. Orange or Apple: I so miss fresh oranges off the tree. Sigh!
15. Do you have a crush on someone? Always
16. Eat or Drink: I love food.
17. Piercings: Terrified of needles
18. Pepsi or Coke: Can’t tell the difference
HAVE YOU EVER?
19. Been in an airplane: Yes, but it still terrifies me
20. Been in a relationship: Um, married more than once, what do you think
21. Been in a car accident: Yes, let’s not discuss
22. Been in a fist fight: I’ve punched someone but have never been the recipient.
23. First piercing: Fear of needles
24. First best friend: I kissed Jose when I was 3, but I’m going to say Staci.
25. First award: No clue. Mom, do you know?
26. (this one was missing)
27. First word: No clue. Mom, help!
29. Last person you talked to in person: Dawne
30. Last person you texted: Duh, Michelle
31. Last person you watched a movie with: James
32. Last food you ate: cereal
33. Last movie you watched: HP & the Deathly Hallows
34. Last song you listened to: Set You Free by The Black Keys
35. Last thing you bought: Michelle's x-mas gift
36. Last person you hugged: Delia
FAVE:
37. Food: Did I mention I like food, all kinds.
38. Drinks: caffeinated
39. Bottoms: No comment
40. Flower: Lily
41. Animal: No comment since both of my pets are nearby
42. Colors: Purple
43. Movies: The Usual Suspects, Twelve Angry Men, Vertigo (most Hitchcock films), Titanic, L.A. Confidential, Pride & Prejudice, I could go on, but will stop
44. Subjects: Books
(Put an X in the brackets if yes)
45. [x] fallen in love with someone.
46. [x] celebrated Halloween.
47. [x] had your heart-broken.
48. [] went over the minutes/texts on your cell phone.
49. [x] had someone question my sexual orientation.
51. [] got pregnant.
52. [] had an abortion.
53. [x] did something I regret.
54. [x] broke a promise.
55. [x] hid a secret.
56. [x] pretended to be happy
57. [x] met someone who changed your life.
58. [x] pretended to be sick.
59. [x] left the country.
60. [x] tried something you normally wouldn’t try and liked it.
61. [x] cried over the silliest thing.
62. [x] ran a mile.
63. [x] went to the beach with your best friend.
64. [x] got into an argument with your friends.
65. [x] hated someone.
66. [x] stayed single for a whole year.
CURRENTLY:
67. Eating: Not at the moment
68. Drinking: Not at the moment
69. Listening to: heater
70. Sitting/Laying: Sitting
71. Plans for today: work, go home workout
72. Waiting for: weekend
YOUR FUTURE:
73. Want kids? No
74. Want to get married? Already am
75. Career: Stay in my current career
WHICH IS BETTER IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?:
76. Lips or eyes? It’s comparing apples and oranges
77. Shorter or taller? Taller
78. Romantic or spontaneous? romantic
79. Nice stomach or nice arms? I love good arms
80. (this one’s missing too)
81. Hook-up or relationship? So dependent on the person
82. Looks or personality? personality, we all age in the end
HAVE YOU EVER:
83. Lost glasses/contacts: Lost my glasses on the hiking trail in New Zealand
84. Snuck out of a house: Shockingly, no
85. Held a gun/knife for self-defense: I’ve been taught how to use them, but thankfully have never had the need.
86. Killed somebody: only in my writing
87. Broken someone’s heart: Yes
88. Been in love: Yes
89. Cried when someone died: Obviously, yes
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
90. Yourself: I don’t deny I have an ego concerning certain things
91. Miracles: Yes
92. Love at first sight: Lust at first sight.
93. Heaven: Yes
94. Santa Claus: Absolutely
95. Sex on the first date: Yes, it all depends
96. Kiss on the first date: Absolutely
TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? I’m content by myself at the moment
98. Do you know who your real friends are? Yes, they helped through this summer
99. Do you believe in God? Whole heartedly
100. Post as 100 truths? About to hit Pulblish Post
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Fringe
Okay, I have many guilty pleasures, but this one I've kept quiet for a while. Now there is talk of canceling the show, I have to voice my strong opinion. If you enjoyed X-Files then you should be watching Fringe, which was created by the brilliant mind, J.J. Abrams, of Lost fame. The show is sci-fi based with a dual universe concept. The other universe has declared war on us and has caused mutant and unexplainable phenomenons. A special team works together to solve the various deathly situations. The show is in its third season and couldn't be better. The dynamic that has grown between the main characters is touching and yes, there is a romance, but there is also a story of a father seeking his son's forgiveness. To hype the show, Fox has created an amazing trailer for this week's pivotal Thursday episode. I'd recommend checking the show out.
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