Babies Babies Everywhere

Everywhere I've turned recently there are babies everywhere. Our refrigerator is covered in photos of our nieces and nephew, Cheryl's A & Z, and Catherine's D. I'm missing Sara's B, Jen's C, and Erin's I (hint, hint). I spent time this weekend with Catherine's D (the pic of hubby in the previous post) and last night I finally met Erin's I(the pics are from my phone), who stole my heart. Isn't he adorable?

Which raises the question of what happened at the doctors last week? I sat with the doctor explaining to him I had chosen the surgery that would prevent me from having children and I was 99% sure and okay with this decision, when my heart tripped. As we continued talking, the doc asked me further questions about my hesitation and at one point even tapped me on the nose, nearly making me cry. I couldn't explain why I was so upset. I was positive of my decision and knew it was for the best, but something was choking me. The doc offered to postpone scheduling the surgery as he read through my files from my previous doc. As we continued talking I felt this fear that I was making a mistake which made no sense...I don't want kids of my own. I love being the auntie and all it entails. The doc had a solution, which I latched onto as a lifeline. We are going with a new fourth alternative. We'll schedule a little minor consultation at the docs and receive a slight chance at 5 years of symptom reprieve and more time to settle into my decision. There are no guarantees, we'll know in 6 months if it worked, but I was glad for the option. I still can't explain what came over me, but I couldn't give up the chance.

Holiday Weekend

We'll discuss the all important doctor's appointment another day. Today, I want to share what a fabulous weekend I had with the hubby and gush about how wonderful he is. I have been suffering from a horrible bout with the plague, hence no Christmas photos of me this year. I was truly unsure if I was going to make it. Hubby allowed me to wallow in my misery most of the weekend, though we did our usual holiday routine of watching It's a Wonderful Life, hubby making cinnamon rolls for breakfast, and me making pot roast for dinner. It was a nice and simple holiday.

The gifts this year were completely one-sided. My gifts for hubby bombed terribly due to certain items appearing one way on line and being atrociously ugly in reality and others being 1 mm larger than required. I made up for it with toasted almonds and coconut candy. Hubby bought me such wonderful gifts, including my snow boots and comfy down jacket (I'm in love), a Gator snowman, and Starbucks Coffee as a stocking stuffer to go along with the coffee maker my parents had sent me. There were many more gifts from hubby, who once again outdid himself. The most hilarious gift award goes to Crystal, who sent me a football picture ornament which had Tebow in a Superman outfit. I laughed for a while over that one. Between various family and friends, I think we were on the phone at least 3 hours talking to people. It was really nice.

On Saturday, we were challenged to a rematch of the Thanksgiving Scene-It championship, but this time with the addition of the Pickrels. We happily agreed along with the offer of meal a la Catherine and James. Hubby had a funny moment trying to feed and burp Baby D, who is adorable and really well behaved.

Sunday was a beautiful snow-in day. I just watched the snow come down and create a blanket across our "yard." Later, I took Bartle for a run in the snow knowing he would dive into the wet flakes and create a massive cleanup.

All around an enjoyable relaxed holiday weekend. Now I need to prepare for New Years and partying.

Happy Holidays

Wishing everyone a wonderful holiday this year! Hubby and I will be ensconced in traditions over the next week and we hope everyone has an enjoyable week. Can't wait to hear what goals everyone has for the New Year!

Decision

Though I am over the moon excited and even did a happy dance when Erin called to say Baby Boy arrived a month early, it reiterated my thoughts concerning my medical decision. Between my own personal thoughts, talking to the hubby, seeing notes in my medical file, and talking to my loved ones who have reminded me of previous conversations, I have decided to go ahead with the surgery. I have such a wonderful support network, who have listened to me argue the merits of each option and have even offered further ideas should I decide I want children later on. Thank you all for your wonderful support and for listening to me for hours as I repeat the same reasons over and over for why I feel the way I do about having a child now.

Time Has Run Out

My niece asked the other day why I wasn't having kids cause she'd really like a cousin. I told her I was a selfish person, in which she corrected me that I cared for her, therefore could not be selfish. Too bad life is not as simple as a ten year old's view of it.

Last year, I wrote about having to make a medical decision, in which, I took the easier road and bought myself some time to determine if I wanted children. A year later and I still recognize I don't want children now, but in the distant future...maybe, I don't know. I don't see myself making the final decision to get pregnant. I had a twinge this year where I debated becoming a mommy, but still viewed it as an abstract thought rather than reality.

This week, I underwent some further tests since my symptoms have returned worse than ever. The doctor informed me, my time had run out. He could do a minor procedure that had a 50% chance of alleviating my symptoms for a limited time if I chose to have a baby, but that the end result was I require surgery that will eliminate the possibility of children.

I've had a whole year to contemplate this decision and still can't say if I want kids. I truly dislike being in the position of making a final decision, but at the same time, I wonder haven't I already decided, but don't want to admit it. Looking back, I have no regrets up to this point. I have wonderful nieces and a nephew to shower my love and attention on. My body is forcing me to make the decision my mind didn't ever want to make. The hubby asked what would be my optimal idea of when to have children, when I described it to him, he pointed out the flaws in my vision. I would be very unhappy in the life I described. Have I based my ideal family situation on an unattainable dream to insure I never thought it was the right time for a child? Over the next week, I'll make my final decision on what is the best course.

Thanks to those who have listened to me go back and forth in my thought process on this subject.

Clark Kent is Superman

I never bought the whole no one knew Clark Kent was Superman idea. Seriously, how naive are people that a pair of glasses threw off recognizing the guy. I can safely affirm that yes, a pair of glasses can alter an appearance significantly enough to make someone unrecognizable. Depending on how bad my allergies are, I have been switching off between wearing contacts and my glasses this past year and have run into the glasses as a disguise phenom.

Recently I helped a customer with a rather complicated question, where she found over 20 pages of documentation. I mean a seriously big find in genealogy research. She was really excited. The next day she came back to the desk to ask for help on something else and as I worked with her, I asked if we were still focusing on ancestors in Tennessee. She asked how I knew she was looking in Tennessee. I pointed out that I was the person who had helped her the night before. She told me I looked different. I was wearing my glasses.

When we ran into Mark and Peggy in NYC, Mark asked Peggy to introduce us since he hadn't met me before. I pointed out that we worked together for almost 6 years. I was wearing contacts. (Michelle pointed out that it's been 2 years and my hair is shorter and darker also)

Another instance involved another customer asking me why I was wearing someone else's name badge, which has my photo. I assured her it was mine. She said I looked nothing like the photo and that the person could be my mother in the photo. I once again stated it was my photo, just with glasses.

So apparently the Clark Kent disguise is a valid one that we need to remember to use if we want to go incognito.

Tearful End

Last evening was a shocking night in college football. I was working yesterday when I received a phone call from a certain Michiganian who wanted to gleefully inform me my beloved Gators were choking at the SEC Championship Game. I got home at half time to finish watching the end of an incredible season and dynasty.

I'm trying to understand how the #1 defense in the nation doesn't show up to a game as important as this one. There were innumerable missed tackles per play, Alabama was allowed to slowly drive the ball down field, and basically dominate control of the ball most of the game. The defense should have shut them down, but failed to do so. Florida's weaknesses within the offense were apparent during the game. They have absolutely no running game, with the exception of Tebow's rushing yards, and the failure of the receivers to hold the ball is indescribable. I had noticed the receiver issue earlier in the season and had commented to the hubby, in the days of the Ol' Ball Coach, they would have been forced to carry footballs to and from classes in an effort to teach them to hold the damn ball. Don't get me wrong, I still believe in the Gators and will continue to cheer for them, but it was so frustrating to watch the game. Alabama was a formidable enemy going into the game, the Gators should have been better prepared in how to handle them. Alabama absolutely deserved the win.

I had another phone conversation where the individual asked why my quarterback was a "pansy" crying on live tv. All I can say is I was crying along with him, as I'm sure many fans were. It was a devastating blow to Tebow, who had won the 2006 & 2008 SEC Conference, 2006 & 2008 National Championship, and 2007 Heisman. He had hoped to go out in a blaze of glory with a 2009 overall win, but it all ended with the SEC Game. As did the wave of victories the Gator Nation has been enjoying. It was a crushing blow that ended everyone's dreams, especially Tebow's. He won't ever get the moment back. I feel for him. He's put his heart and soul into the team, game, and fans and it brutally ended. I will always admire his passion, love for the game, and his prowess on the field. The apology he made after the Mississippi Game will live in infamy in my mind as a standard that others should strive to accomplish. He will forever be remembered as being the Gator who beat all the records and made fans proud.

As for the other game of the night, what the heck happened at the end of the Big 12 Conference Game? Now I have an intense dislike of Nebraska since the 1995 disaster in Tempe (Gators know what I'm talking about). Why did McCoy drag out the play so there was a question at the end? I felt a tad bit for Nebraska believing they had won the game only to lose it. But great game!

So until next year, Go Gators!!!!

Objectifying Men

I know, I know, I always joke about the eye candy when watching a tv show, movie, or sometimes when discussing a real person, but I was recently disturbed by a trend I noticed. With the release of New Moon a few weeks ago, women were clambering to catch a glimpse of the actors from the movie. As I watched interviews on late night tv, I found it uncomfortable to listen to the actors discuss their interactions with female fans. Some of them are truly disturbing.

Robert Pattinson openly discusses women asking him to bite them, while the other actors have women continuously offering themselves up or asking for the clothes off the actor's backs. Taylor Lautner frequently tells a story of a woman asking him to sign the panties she was wearing at the time. Let's remember he's underage.

If a man treated a woman the way these actors are being objectified, we would find his behavior sexist and misogynistic, yet we find it acceptable for women to behave in this fashion. I'm not sure when women became the alpha male, but its dismaying that we are teaching young girls to act in this manner.

Thanksgiving Weekend

After last year, I was unsure how I would feel about staying up north for Thanksgiving weekend. For me the holiday kicks off my favorite time of year and is filled with family, loved ones, and lots of food. I was not disappointed. Wed. night, Erin and I stayed for the Lighting Ceremony downtown. It consisted of crowds, singing carols, hot apple cider, and running into the newly engaged couple of Sarai and Kevin (again congrats!). Erin pointed out it had a small town feel to it, but I had a great time.

The next day, hubby and I shared Thanksgiving Day with Delia and William. Delia and I split the cooking duties and I believe William enjoyed my stuffing and pumpkin pie. The hubby was happy with a can of whipped cream. Lots of talking, eating, and catching part of the Texas game ensued. I didn't want to admit while sitting in an Arkansas Razorback home that I was secretly cheering for Texas. Game playing began after dinner leading to Delia and I being the 4 time champions of Scene-It.

Friday was decorating day. This is a tradition hubby and I began upon being married. It takes us around 8 hours to decorate the whole apartment. We were in a race with Crystal and Michelle, who had the unfair advantage of staying up all night for Black Friday. The only shopping the hubby and I accomplished was to buy me a new touch screen phone, with a camera and internet. This is a big deal since I could barely text on my very out-dated phone. Hubby was offered the chance of a new phone, but stuck with his dinosaur instead.

Saturday dawned late for us, but in time for the big game. UF vs FSU. Its a state rivalry, though not as crazy as it was in my heyday of the 90s, but that didn't stop me from cheering and yelling at the tv. Yes, I teared up when watching Tebow enter Florida field for the last time. With my new phone, I was able to text Sonia, Michelle, my sis, and niece N to discuss the game. N informed me that she had taught her two year old sis the Gator chomp. So proud of my Gator girls!

Overall an excellent weekend, thanks to friends and loved ones. Thanks for the memories.

Holiday Request

Most of you know I am an extremely religious person, who attends church weekly and reads and prays daily. I don't openly discuss my religious beliefs unless asked, so you know this is something I feel strongly about since I'm posting it on the blog.

My church is focusing on a theory called Advent Conspiracy. The idea is we spend $40 billion on the holidays (which I personally contribute to) between decorations, gifts, food, etc., yet many people in the world are still lacking basic essentials. For our local community, we have decided to have a coat drive. We plan to give up one or more gifts this year and purchase a new coat for someone who can't afford it. Last year, we suffered through several days of temperatures in the negative and many people in our community lacked coats to stay warm. Instead of giving people used coats, our church would like to give them new coats. We are hoping to supply them with a necessity plus some pride in receiving a new item rather than a hand-me-down.

If you would like to participate, please bring me your coat purchases by 12/7 or contact me and I am willing to pick them up as well. If you don't wish to participate, I will think nothing of it. I usually don't push my beliefs, but felt strongly about this cause. Happy Holidays!

New Moon, The Movie

Did you have to ask? Yes, Becky, Erin, and I went opening night to see the latest in the Twilight series, New Moon. Thankfully, someone bought our tickets for us when they were at the box office earlier in the week and were told only 57 tickets were left. We braved teenagers and a long line to wait for our seats and managed to snag some extra seats for the group who had bought our tickets, making us a party of eight. Its Karma!

I've decided not to bullet point the movie as I did with Twilight last year. New Moon is far better than Twilight. It has a bigger budget, the actors are more comfortable in their characters, and the overall suspense of what the audience wants is over. That being said, the movie does have some faults: the score, lack of Volturi (it felt so brief), lack of Charlie (not enough), and the break up scene.

The break up scene between Edward and Bella was wrenching for me to read and I expected it not to play out as well on screen, but they had me sucked in. Then Bella utters something similar to...well this changes everything. It yanked me out of the scene. I thought, no that's a direction of what the character should be feeling, but not stating. So close. The scene where Bella thinks Jacob is breaking up with her, plus the final scene when Bella tells Jacob she would always choose Edward were far more emotional, though I am Team Edward.

I believe the best thing in the movie is Taylor Lautner. Yes, the movie features a lot of eye candy, but come on, he's too young, but he can act. I found myself absorbed in his character when he was on screen. He did a wonderful job with the emotional upheaval that Jacob experiences through the movie. Considering I viewed his character as a bully in the book, I truly felt bad for his character in the movie, and that is all thanks to Taylor's performance.

I know some people will make fun of us Twi-hards, but we had a blast! We have shared the books, the emotions, and personal memories they invoke. The excitement of opening weekend of the first movie, the DVD release, and now the camaraderie and fun of waiting in line for the second movie, and planning for the third, it's a bonding experience. One that I am truly enjoying.

Thanks Gals for a great time! Countdown to June 30 begins!

Mama-To-Be

No, not me. I had to mention Erin's baby shower, though she'll never read it. She looked so blissfully happy, while her friends spoiled her. It's always fun to remind friends how important they are. Can't wait to meet Baby Boy in January. Now us ladies are preparing for our big GNO this weekend.

New York Experience

New York was amazing! Going in the late fall was a smart idea. It was cool, breezy, and smelled of roasted nuts. I'm not kidding, that is the smell I associate with NYC. It was as busy and hectic as I thought, but I didn't expect lines longer than Disney's, the stair experience, dusk at 3:30, the over 100 blocks walked daily, and the possiblity of running into someone I know. While walking along the Brooklyn Bridge, I ran into the Hupes from Tampa. It was hilarious. And why, oh, why did the Yankees win while we were in town. We got trapped in the parade on Friday. We stayed on the red line, so we were a ride away from most places, but usually chose to walk so we could experience the city.

We visited all the tourist sites, such as walking the Brooklyn Bridge both ways, Statue of Liberty, Ellis Island, Castle Clinton, Central Park several times, NY Public Library, Empire State Building, Times Square, and Rockefeller Center. We walked to see the Guggenheim Museum, Grand Central Station, Penn Station, Madison Square Garden, South Street Seaport, Financial District, Wall Street, New York Stock Exchange, Trinity Church, St. Patrick Cathedral, Macy's, Chrysler Building and 5th Avenue. Two highly recommended food places are Serendipity and Grimald's Pizzeria. Both were worth the hikes to enjoy them.

Best moments: Hubby hiking to the Empire State Building at night so I could see it lit up. Hubby listening to my lecture at Ellis Island. The tour of the WTC site made me cry. It was so heart rending and emotional. Seeing the Lion King on Broadway. It was phenomenal! Yes, I sang along. My favorite moment was my first ice skating experience and it was at Rockefeller Center. No, I didn't fall and yes, I did let go of the handrail. Loved it!

Geekdom

In the course of a chat the other day, someone asked me what shows I watch regularly. I realized as I started to list them that I am an absolute geek.

My regular viewing habits are:
NCIS (LJG is a real man, and I love the play between the characters)
V (can't wait for it to begin)
Lost (counting down to January)
Vampire Diaries (continuing the obsession)
Flash Forward (The story has me hooked)
Bones (David B, nothing more needs to be said)
Fringe (love JJ Abrams work, except I'm upset about the death of a main character)
Smallville (I've watched since the 1st ep, it gets better each season)
Dollhouse (I bow to Joss Whedon and his genius, plus Tahmoh Penikett from BSG)

So tell me if you watch any of these shows, maybe we can start a dialogue. Or share your guilty pleasures.

Shakespearean Plague

This weekend, the hubby and I went on a double date with Lighthearted Librarian and her beau to see Romeo & Juliet. The man seated in front of us had the plague. Now as someone who works in public service, I have little techniques to avoid breathing in people's germs. One of those techniques being holding my breath as someone hacks a lung in front of me. I eventually couldn't breath because he wouldn't stop. I'm not talking dry cough, but a real phlegmy cough. Each time he caught his breath, he would wipe his nose on his hand and sleeve. Why did he need to see the play and share his germs?

Otherwise, it was another fun, raunchy production from FBT. I am beginning to really enjoy their Shakespearean renditions. It may offend purists, but for myself, it was quite enjoyable.

Hubby Woes

Let's continue the woes. To begin, this one is not about my hubby. To protect the person's privacy, I'll not use names though some may know whom I'm discussing. She asked her husband for a divorce, in which he started the name calling and accusations. She asked for a non-contested divorce, split everything, including custody. He argued. She hired an attorney, he decided to negotiate. Things should be simple, but they're not. He dragged out the negotiations, so she held off filing divorce papers, hoping this could end amicably. He is in the military and announced this week, he will be deployed to Afghanistan in x weeks and will be gone for well over a year. She can't file papers while he's deployed. Which leaves her legally married to him, but they've separated their accounts in preparation for the divorce, and he's giving her barely enough to support their child (1/2 the daycare cost). She's trapped and he's using the military as a ploy to hurt her. The real shame in this is his child will be harmed in the fact that he's not supporting the child.

Mommy Woes

This may come as a surprise to some people, but I used to want children. Not just one, but two kids to run around the house. For the past 15 years, my feelings on this topic have wavered. For the past 5 years, I've been satisfied with my life and thinking a child wouldn't add anything. But the 10 years before, I had wavered. You see, I had been told my chances of having children were 80/20, but I had surgery 5 years ago that eliminated any problems. With all the health issues, I was told to have children by 35. Now that age is encroaching, the thought is swirling around, will I regret not having children?

The other day Sara's B was visiting and I just fell in love with him. The surge of mommy feelings were startling to me. I hadn't felt them in a long long time. When my sis had C and I was the birthing coach, I was amazed by the experience, but didn't feel the twinge.

I've been reading material on what makes a good parent. I know such a librarian move, but I like to have all the facts before me. I think I would make a great parent. My fear is I would resent my child for the things I gave up. This is an important question because I recognize I am a selfish person who does enjoy my current lifestyle, but at the same time, can't see myself living this lifestyle forever. Am I willing to give it up? The hubby lives/ works 70 miles away, what would we have to give up to have a child? These questions are running thru my head.

I know some of you find this humorous, since last year I had a medical decision to make that would affect my options for motherhood. I hesitated and made a decision that was the middle road and my hubby made a decision to not act on anything. I've been in turmoil over what to do. Now, I'm utterly confused.

I can't come up with a reason to have children except maybe I'd regret it later. I can list the numerous reasons to not have children. But I can't forget a few years ago when the doc had informed me I was pregnant. For two weeks, the hubby and I went thru all the emotions of thinking we were expectant parents. I also recall the crushing blow when we found out it wasn't true.

So for those who have decided not to have children, do you mind sharing if you regret this decision. For those who have children, how do you feel. Feel free to email me or comment below with your thoughts.

Apartment Woes

I have lived in apartments since I turned 18, with the exception of owning a house for less than a year. You do the math, but I've lived in apartments for a long time. Until I moved into my current complex, I've had barely any need for maintenance. Our larger apartment that we moved from last month had a leaky roof, plumbing issues, cabinets falling off their hinges, windows that wouldn't lock, and issues with sealing the windows and doors (we lived there 2 years). You might ask, why I stayed as long as I did and moved into another apartment in the same complex. The answer is I really have not found a better place to live without buying. My new apartment has been wonderful, with the exception of the window problem again. I refuse to ever open a window again.

Last night, the glue holding the place together came undone. The toilet started acting up with the water rising every time it flushed. The thermostat has been saying its 70 since the day I moved in, but that wasn't a big deal until it dropped into the 30s overnight. Becky has no cell phone coverage in her place, but I've had no problem until last night. Suddenly, I had no service when I tried to call the hubby for advice on what to do with the toilet. Yes, I did the basics, but they didn't work. So this morning I had a flooded bathroom. Oh joy! I still say its better that I can tell the complex and they'll deal with it rather than me waiting for a plumber. Its still annoying though.

Should He Play?

As many of you know, I am a major Tim Tebow fan. I know certain individuals I work with don't care for the Gators quarterback, but I truly admire the young man. I also have much respect for his coach, Urban Meyer. Two weeks ago, in the Florida vs. Kentucky game, Tebow suffered a concussion that required him to be transported off the field. He's been asked not to even read in order to recuperate. With the game against LSU this weekend, many are questioning whether Tebow should play.

I understand its a big game, #1 vs. #4. I'm a rabid fan as well. But lets be honest. We are talking about a young man's health, his life, his career. No chances should be taken. He's 22 yrs old. I'm afraid to admit, I'm 10 yrs older than him. I feel every twinge from previous injuries because I believed I could push through. I truly hope Urban Meyer decides not to let Tebow play this weekend. I believe the Gators are a good enough team to win the game against LSU without potentially harming one of its biggest assets.

Go Gators!

Where did the Year Go?

It's already October. 3 months and counting to the end of the year. September flew by and October is speeding fast away, so I fear its time to see if I will meet my goals by year's end.

1. Travel
I've been to Michigan, Florida, North Carolina, Illinois (2x), and Ohio (2x) this year. Hubby and I head for NYC in Nov, which I'm really excited about. So I've met this goal. Check it off my list.

2. Writing
Midway thru the year I had decided to alter this goal to include finishing my second story and having people review it. I should be proud that I finished my first story earlier in the year and braved people's reviews, yet I feel so close, yet so far with the altered goal. I finished the "story" but need to really clean it up before having people review it. Unfortunately, with everything going on, I haven't touched my writing in 2 months.

3. Workout
I'm not at my goal, but I'm close. I'm back to a routine workout, but I've decided to maintain the weight rather than try to lose the remaining 5. It seems impossible to lose them, plus they'll never leave the area I want gone (my hips). I'm not sure if my body will ever tone down, but I'll be happy with being healthy, working out routinely and without a goal.

4. Society Membership
I need to not think on this. Just give it a rest, since I seem incapable of getting the paperwork and completing my own research. Not enough time in the day.

Well, I'm happy with my completion of my goals and the ones I haven't completed, apparently, were never meant to be.

Domestication

I went shopping again this weekend. Not a good sign! I've been looking for a coat for my NYC trip and left the mall with several other purchases, none of them being a coat. The last time I went shopping, I bought two new skirts. BTW, I couldn't find any skirts this time. Do they pull them off the rack for winter? Back to my point, I have managed to rip the hem of one of my skirts multiple times now. Michelle, Delia, and Kay have told me how easy it is for me to hem the skirt, but I have taken it to be repaired. Since I spent way too much money on clothes this weekend, I decided to try hemming the skirt on my own. Turns out, it looks good. Next, we'll test it tomorrow to see if it rips again.

Hopefully, no one gets ideas that I'm becoming domesticated and plan to accomplish more "wifely" duties. I'm still me!

They Want to Explore

My animals decided they wanted to go exploring yesterday. Too bad they don't understand they need to stay inside for their safety. Both of them took off after Cleo knocked over the propped screen on my patio. Bartle actually stayed on the patio, but Cleo decided to take off until she realized I was running after her. She hid below the bottom step outside the front of the apartment. Its pretty disgusting down there. Dirt, laundry lint, and bugs. Did I mention I was working out when this happened, sweaty and in shorts? Bugs, etc. stuck to me as I crawled under the stairs. Cleo was not pleased about my saving, she hissed and bit me. The hubby swears he'll put in a new screen when he comes home.

This makes me think of last week's episode of Bones. Did anyone else see the scene with the cats? I can see Cleo sitting their licking her lips. That scene cracked me up.

Michelle's Visit

Michelle flew from Florida on her birthday to visit for a few days. As soon as she stepped off the plane, we both nearly cried. Yes, we were the huggy people in the terminal who wouldn't move out of the way. We started our vacation with a birthday dinner and some True Blood. Michelle is a major Sam lover!

The next day we went to Grabill for some homemade candy and fudge along with a stroll around the antiques area. Michelle got to see the Amish, corn, and avoid poo. Then we were off to lunch with my lunch buddies at the Dash. Exceptional food and conversation, followed by a tour of the grand library because I had to show off where I work. After a brief change of clothes we were off for a GNO that included the hubby. Dinner at Henry's, the International Fest Block Party (love men in kilts, good music), Flashback (the pregnant woman was the only one to hit the dance floor, but we could talk, since no one else was there), and Rum Runners (seriously, last call at 11:30). Normally, I would have pics, but the battery on my camera died.

The next day we were out the door early for the Johnny Appleseed Festival. Lots of caramel corn, apple dumplings, apple petals (the best), apple cider, steak sandwiches, turkey legs, hay, and many bought items, we were ready for Chicago. One of the things I love about Michelle, she doesn't mind my singing in the car. We arrived in Chicago only to receive a suite instead of our normal room on Michigan Ave. Yea!!! We had dinner at House of Blues (great southern food), drinks and a quick viewing of some football games at PJ Clarke's, Navy Pier (I chickened out on the Ferris Wheel), Reagle Beagle (Stay Puft Smorestini is awesome deliciousness, along with great 80s music), and Second City (amazing show followed by a rehearsal of their new material, 2.5 hours of great comedy).

The next day (no hangovers for us gals), we left for the Adler Planetarium and wounded up at the Tailgate Party for the Bears vs. Steelers game. We never made it to the Planetarium. We drove down to MOSI to see the Harry Potter exhibit, but only got to see the Ford Anglia instead. We did go on a fantastic walk thru Hyde Park, ate at a cute neighborhood restaurant, and went on an excellent tour of Robie House. Drove back home in time to have our garlicy leftovers from the birthday dinner and watch Twilight and True Blood.

Overall, a wonderful vacation, in which I remembered why I adore Michelle so much. Can't wait to see you again in 6 months.

New Moon - New Trailer

All I can say is wow! It looks so amazing!

Movie Trailers - Movies Blog

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Moving

We finished our move over the weekend. I'm so proud of all we accomplished. Moving between three places can be a little rough. Our closets are still a mess, but pictures are hung on the wall and the place looks ready for our first house guest on Thursday. Many thanks to Dawne and William for their help. Without the truck, I'm not sure how we would have managed the larger items. And without William helping the hubby to lug a couch upstairs, it would have been pretty dicey. We had perfect weather and witnessed only one accident on the interstate, but were not involved in any. The space is pretty tight with our big furniture, but we'll manage. Some day I will remember that my clothing is in the dining room area, since my bureau can't fit in the bedroom. Becky says its a lovely bureau and can now be seen. The animals are slowly settling in. Bartle is quite confused on where he lives, especially since its a block away from where we previously lived. Cleo is upset that she has to share the bathroom with us again. So all is well.

Now I have to prepare for the insanity of this weekend. Michelle and I have overbooked ourselves once again. It should be fun! I'll write about our adventures next week.

Be Warned -Deeply Personal

People ask me how I'm handling a particular rough situation. My feelings have been broiling over the situation and my handling of it, especially as J* turns 25 today. So I decided to share my feelings by sharing the letter I sent him. Mind you, it is deeply personal, but explains how I feel without me crying when someone asks.

J*,
How does it feel to be a quarterlifer? I know for myself, it was terrifying. My life was a mess and I thought I would never clean it up. I guess I was wrong and so are you. Yes, this is another plea on my part. I know you think I don't care and I've walked away, but that's not true. I wish everyday that you'll realize what an amazing life is waiting for you.
When I think of you, specific images come to mind. One of them being you helping me 10 years ago thru a rough time in my life. My 24th birthday was hard and you and J* took me to dinner and the concert, reminding me I had people to help me. Other images are you at my graduation, my 18th birthday, visiting me in college, going to the Homecoming game. The last image that I can't shake is you in Colorado. You weren't even 2 years old, but you wanted to be all grown up. You were taking a picture of your shadow with a squirt camera.
That boy breaks my heart. You have such potential and it's not too late to change the direction of your life.
I received a phone call 18 months ago where I was told, J* died of a drug overdose. They could have been talking about you. I never want to experience that pain. Please keep this letter for a while, knowing that I love you, think of you, and pray for you. If you find yourself wanting to make a change, I'll be here for you. I beg you to please ask * for help.
You have many more birthdays we can celebrate together. Live and become the man I know you can be. Know that someone still has faith in you.

As much as I act okay with everything, I still desperately want J* to get help. So that's my feelings on the situation.

Weekend Crisis

My baby had a health crisis this weekend. Without going into disgusting detail, we'll say something ruptured on Bartle and he had to be taken to the vet for an emergency procedure. Thankfully, I have a great friend and coworker in Delia who insisted I call the vet and take care of the problem during a holiday weekend work shift. Bartle is home now, recuperating with lots of pain meds and a large cone. He's having issues with the cone and not being able to act normal, which includes the stairs. I have to carry him up and down the stairs while being mindful that he has an open wound that is healing. I felt like a proud mama this morning when he was somewhat "normal". So, that was my holiday weekend. How about yours?

Weekend Fun

As we walked the dog this weekend, my hubby noticed one of his tires had gone flat. And I am eternally grateful it did not happen on the interstate. Hubby decided we should hang out at the mall while his tires were replaced, which was a bad decision. As a pear-shaped woman who has struggled with finding the right clothes, I have debated the wisdom of splurging on a new wardrobe. I have so many other things I'd rather spend my money on. Of course, upon spying some cute skirts, I had to buy them. Now that I have the skirts, I can't wear my library shoes or flats with the skirts, so I had to buy an expensive pair of boots. So after clearing out five bags for Goodwill this weekend, I have now added more to my closet. I didn't buy a whole new wardrobe, just some new outfits. I need to avoid the mall. I have no self control.

Hubby Editing

The hubby offered to read over my latest writing project. The idea excited me to have his perspective and him involved in something important to me. He's only read the first 2 chapters, but he has given me an earful. Mind you, he doesn't read romance, so its a new genre for him. Also, I have to say he has some great advice on how I can perk up some scenes and expand the characters, but he doesn't get it.

Last night, he informed me that my characters are despicable and unlikable. For those who've heard me discuss this story idea, you know how much I love these characters. He informed me the heroine is so abrasive that no man would tolerate her. I tried pointing out that I used to act the same way and he still dated me and asked me to marry him. He says I wasn't that bad, which I doubt. He thinks the characters are elitist, yet that I should add some quips in the dialogue that even I don't get cause they're above my knowledge base. Talk about elitist. My favorite comment though was that no one has these types of conversations in a bar. Much less some loser guy roaming around hitting on women. I had to finally remind him that he didn't go barhopping like I did. That some of those conversations are similar to ones I've had and yes, the losers roam.

A part of me questions the wisdom of having him look over anymore of the story, but he did have some good pieces of advice. I'm going to have to wait for other people's opinion. This is still the very rough draft of the story, but I thought the characters were great!

Peeves of the Moment

I'm trying to understand why people think these behaviors are acceptable. Some examples that I've heard recently.

Odor du jour Seriously, please do not overwhelm me with your perfume, cigarette smoke, or body odor. All are offensive and make me want to maintain as much distance as possible so I don't get sick. Really, when I step back, its not an invite for you to step forward.

You are not as important as you think you are. If I'm speaking to someone else, please don't step between me and the person I am currently helping. I will always step around to continue talking to the other person. I'm flattered that you believe I know exactly which aisle that particular book is located, but I truly do not have total recall. Also, when you sigh heavily, mumble to yourself, it makes me and the other person want to finish our interaction quicker.

Lurker Please don't read over my shoulder as I work. I'm sure you have other things to do. If not, I can come up with a list. I have work that needs to get done and not the time to explain my assignments, especially to someone who is not my supervisor. Plus its creepy.

Gossiper If you're going to listen to my conversations and try to repeat it, please get the information correct. Creating false rumors because you mishear my private conversations does not ingratiate you to me.

Do have some recent peeves to add?

Tinglies

I saw this article on the Florida Gators and got the tinglies. I am over the moon ecstatic about the upcoming season. As the article states, Florida has the opportunity to win a back-to-back National Championship making it a possible third in the last five years. What amazed me is Florida received 58 of the 60 top votes. Florida was the underdog for so long, even after they had proven their worth, so to see some recognition was pleasing.

All the praise they give Tim Tebow also raises my love of this article. Can't say enough great things about this guy. He has honestly become my #1 college player. Sorry Wuerffel, I truly thought no one would surpass, but you're still in my top 3.

Another person I admire among this team is Urban Meyer. He is very focused in how his players should handle all the hoopla over their standing in the college football world. The fact that he wants the guys to keep a level head and recognize that one misstep means all this celebration is for naught.

So as a fan, I get to revel in the excitement and can't wait for the games to begin. But I truly admire this team for their accomplishments. I do have the tinglies though about this year. Go Gators!

Must Read

Alright, I should listen to my reading friends, but I can't help holding out due to my misguided notions. Janssen mentioned on her blog this really great book called Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins. It sounded like that horrible Arnold movie the Running Man, so I decided no thanks. Michelle and Kelly discussed the book and I asked if it was worth it. Both of them said they couldn't put it down and were upset they had to wait so long for a resolution. I still didn't read it. All the reviews I read said how amazingly great the book was and I couldn't understand the hype. When things are overly hyped, I usually find them terrible. Then Peggy, who couldn't finish Harry Potter or Twilight, said she liked the book and her advisory group was discussing the sequel, Catching Fire (they have an advance copy), I decided I had to try it.

Yes, I admit, you all were right. I read Hunger Games in 2 days and all I could think is AMAZING. I loaned it to Delia for her flight cause I was that positive she would enjoy it. I borrowed Catching Fire and almost finished it in one night, but I had to get some sleep to go to work, so I finished it the next night. Once again, AMAZING. I really can't describe or explain the series, except to say, you must read them.

Also, I promise to listen to my reading buddies from now on.

Too Young

As I get older, I muse on why I enjoy being of an age. I truly do not reflect back on my 20s and think, oh I miss it. I won't deny there are some days where I wish I could slow time down and remain in my early 30s, but I'll adjust. The one area age is a contributing factor and I've enjoyed my worldly age is in my career. I've always been too young to be in the position I find myself in. Twice I've been in management positions where people thought me too young, but I've persevered.

Currently, I work in a research center where my coworkers are older than me, a few have even worked here a couple of decades. I like my coworkers and the environment I've settled into, but there are exceptions, such as when someone questions my age, therefore my knowledge. It's happened before where a customer will ask me how long I've worked here followed by I want someone who's been here longer. I always have to pull out my vitae and explain I've worked in my specialization for x years and ran my own collection for x years and was a university instructor in my specialized field as well. So today, I was once again frustrated to have a customer inform me I was too young to know what I was talking about.

I'll try to take it as a compliment that I appear young, I've accomplished so much at an early age, or heck, I'll accept they're just having a bad day. Either way, please don't insult my intelligence.

Being Prepared

My normal morning routine includes grabbing the most comfortable outfit, i.e. baggy clothing, smathering moisturizer on my face, and putting a smidge of makeup on. Yesterday, I did the full work up, mascara and all and a cute outfit because we had a ladies night dinner after work. Lucky for me since two guys came into the collection, filming a documentary, similar to History Detectives, and asked me to show how to research a historical company. I kept thinking, thankfully, I'm wearing makeup and a cute outfit. Of course, it was thrown off by my arm brace and library shoes, but hey, I think it's livable. You all know how much I love being filmed, as I wrote last year in Filming Fear.

So ladies, I think we need to remember the old adage to be prepared when we go out cause you never know who you'll run into.

Addendum: I should have listened to my own advice. The film guys came back today to do a follow-up. Of course, I have minimal makeup and didn't even wash my hair this morning since I was up half the night readingHunger Games. Seriously, be prepared!

Moving

As many of you know, the hubby and I have tried to reasonably maintain two residents, since he works for the university 80 miles away. Alas, we have made it work personally, but financially its been a strain. We left the decision to fate and told our complex we would be interested in downsizing but only if there was an apartment in Becky's building. Less than a week later, they called to inform me that I could move into the apartment directly across the hall, but I had a limited amount of time to accomplish the move.

So here we are, me in a panic. I'm a planner, one who has to organize every thought ahead of time, before making the final decision. No time to think it over thoroughly, I went forward with the decision since it was in the building I had requested. So in a little over a month, I'll be in a smaller apartment with Becky as my neighbor. She tries to remind me that I will not have the same lovely view of the dumpster, parking lot, pool, and basketball courts, instead I'll have trees and bunnies. I need the reminder when I get panicked.

Hopefully with a change of scenery, my opinion of the complex will improve along with my budget. So here's to another fun move and adventure as well as letting fate make my decisions.

Football Season

It's that time of year again. College Football Season is upon us! I was standing in line yesterday and saw the USA Today sitting in the rack and the headline caused my pulse to race. Florida is ranked #1.. Time for the big showdown again. Time to buck up and prepare for the defending of the National Championship Title. Time to watch Tim Tebow work his magic on the field. Time where every Saturday, I'll find my eyes drifting to the tv for the latest score. Can't wait. Go Gators!

Books, Books, Books

I love reading! No, it's not the reason I became a librarian, but it's a definite perk that I'm surrounded by people who love reading. All of us have our own tastes in books and share our opinions with each other and there are way too many books to read. I have many discussions with friends concerning books and am always being told, oh, you should read this one next. I love it!

I squabble on Goodreads with several friends. Kay, my romance guru has a wonderful blog, where she reviews books. Delia and I read most of her recommendations and discuss them. Becky, Erin, and I have lively discussions concerning books we are reading. We even enticed Dawne to read one of our recommendations after a lunch conversation. Janssen critiques books on her blog that I've debated reading (I've placed Hunger Games on hold after the last review of the sequel). Michelle recently mentioned an audio book she is reading. I don't particularly like audio books, but after we discussed the original book and movies it's spawned, I decided I would try the audio version. Michelle said the reader is amazing. So I picked up Frank Herbert's Dune and can understand why Michelle wants to drive around town listening to the book. The guy is amazing.

So does anyone else have any recommendations of book discussions, blogs, or just books, in general? Have I covered all that we enjoy?

Traveling

I love to travel! There, I said it...but my hubby is iffy on traveling. He complains a lot about it, hence why I take trips with my girlfriends instead. The past week, I've been a little more vocal about wanting to travel again. I've been saving this year and holding out on big trips, but I'm yearning to plan a nice vacation. I'm jealous that Crystal went to England (I've been asking for 5 years). The hubby says we'll go one of these days. I asked about attending Comic-con next year. He says sure, we'll go. I want to go hiking in Brown County (I've been asking for 2 years) or in the Smokies (I've been asking for 7 years). Maybe this fall is the response I get. Abby returned from NYC and I asked her to take me next time (I've asked the hubby for 6 years) and she agreed. The hubby is upset because he lived there for a while and wants to show me the town. I reminded him I've waited for him to take me and he never has. He now wants me to plan our trip to NYC. Until the plane is booked, why do I question it? I guess I should continue planning my fall adventure with Michelle :)

Random Thoughts

Just some random thoughts on recent events in everyday life.

My hubby loves to make fun of my holiday obsession though he adds to it. I have six boxes of decorations that we begin unpacking the day after Thanksgiving. He forgets he's the one who has bought me a large amount of the items I place around the house. This weekend he brought home the latest Snow Buddy for my collection. Isn't he sweet?

(image courtesy of Hallmark.com)

Another funny moment with the hubby included an old tv show I love. I am currently rewatching episodes via Netflix and hubby walked in and commented on why no one knew the character Cole was evil. I was so proud of him because a. he knew the character name and b. he knew the history of the character. I had to explain that I was watching the episode where the character was introduced, so we didn't know the history yet.

I find it humorous that Dawne, who I deem a very sensible person has become sucked into the Twilight phenom. I asked her to explain to me why she had to read 180 pages after working the night shift, why she couldn't put the book down? She can't explain.

Steve stopped me the other day to ask if I knew the SEC had signed a big deal with ESPN. I was not aware of the deal, so had to look into it. Basically it means more SEC football on ABC and ESPN. Woo-hoo, sort of! I don't subscribe to cable, so I'll only benefit if the games are on ABC. Can't wait for college football season.

Cheryl had sent a request via facebook for someone to join her for the U2 concert in Tampa. I debated it, but decided I couldn't fly down for a concert. Last week she informed me that Muse is the opening act. I am absolutely jealous and wished I had agreed to fly down. After looking to see if there were tickets left for the Chicago show, which there are, I was disappointed to discover Muse was not the opening act up here. I'll have to remain jealous of Cheryl.

Visit with Cheryl

Cheryl and family were visiting Cleveland, so I took a jaunt over to see them. It was so worth the trip. We had a blast hanging out. We went to the Leaping Lizard for lunch with Phil and the girls (finally some great wings). Followed by a day at the Rock Hall of Fame, which I need to go back to visit, since we closed the museum and there is so much to see. The last 15 minutes included us running upto the top two floors to see the Springsteen exhibit. I thought no one could shop like Michelle at Margaritaville, but Cheryl has won the prize. The moment she said, I need a mouse pad for work, I knew I was in trouble. Did you know Cleveland is on Lake Erie? One of these days, I will know my geography of the Great Lakes. I was duly impressed. We ended the day having dinner in Little Italy, which I hope to return as well. Overall a great day! Nice to see a friend and have fun conversation. Now, all I need is for the rest of my Florida friends to visit and I'll be set. Thanks to Phil for watching the girls so Cheryl and I could hang out, to my hubby who took care of the animals, and to Cheryl for showing me around Cleveland and taking time out of her busy travel schedule to hang out.

Give a Compliment

The past few weeks have been a little rough out in customer service land. People have been abrupt, rude, and plain mean at times. I truly believe we have too much on our minds and are facing too many hardships, so we don't realize how we come across to others or how we are taking out our own problems on other people. I have come to question my own customer service skills as well since it used to be one rough customer a day and now...well, it's definitely more than one. I've taken some comfort in talking to others and realizing it's not only me who has noticed this downward spiral in niceties.

On Saturday, I received a very sweet compliment from a customer who had been visiting our facility for the past week. After talking with her, I felt an uplift in spirit and realized how desperately I needed to hear those simple words from someone. It renewed my belief in my own skills as well as made me realize how much we take kindness for granted.

My sage advice for the day is give a compliment. If you receive good service or think someone is doing a good job, let them know. They may be having a rough time of it and your few kind words may help.

Slug

Recently, I've found myself a little sluggish. Instead of going about my free time working on various projects, I've been vegging out in front of the tv. I know it's humorous considering I don't really have a tv, but I've been watching a lot of DVDs rather than being productive. It's not that I'm depressed or unmotivated, I just crave the mindless time. Even reading holds less appeal to the tv at the moment. I know that's a shocking statement.

Do others get this way? Where there is nothing else going on in your life except going home and truly crashing? I used to say I was going home and crashing, but that meant working out, taking the dog for a 2.5 mile walk, working on my book, or reading.

Tomorrow is another day off, I hope it means a productive day for me. If anything, I may finally finish the entire Friends DVD set. An entire 10 years of the show, plus commentary. Sigh, many wasted hours.

How do you waste time or slug around?

Goodreads Discussion

Considering some discussions my friends and I have on certain books, I expected comments on my blog when I brought up certain books, but usually don't receive any. I also place brief reviews on Goodreads and periodically receive feedback. Last week, Michelle finished Dead and Gone by Charlaine Harris and I posted a brief comment on her review, which has led to 12 comments that I have found humorous. I love these debates. Feel free to add your opinion if you would like.

M- I can't believe you are still a Bill-hater. He "slightly" redeems himself in this book.

M- Yeah . . . still don't like him.

K- I feel bad for him - I think he really loves Sookie and he blew it. Maybe he'll keep her on True Blood.

M- They made Eric do something despicable on TB that I think Sookie may not be able to forgive, whereas Bill is more redeemable on the show so far. As for the books, my opinion of Bill changed with this book. Hearing Eric's story showed how Bill had no control over his betrayal of Sookie. When he was willing to give his life to protect her, I finally caved and accepted him as a contender again. Yes, I was a Bill-hater, but now I'm in wait and see mode. Where the hell was Eric during this time? During the book, I thought Eric viewed Sookie as a more of a possession or obsession rather than a lover.

K- I think Eric does truly love her, at least in the books. He's amazed he does, but he does. On the show he (at least at this point) seems to enjoy Sookie and equally enjoy pushing Bill's buttons by showing he likes her.

I think they did the Lafayette thing just to have a way to keep him alive yet out of the way for a few days. I'm not sure book-Eric would have done that - didn't seem his style.

M- I still haven't watched TB, though the more y'all talk about it the more I want to go out and buy it.

B- As far as the books go, I was never a Bill-hater but I was never a Bill-lover either. I always thought that he loved Sookie and I understood why he did certain things. That said, I don't think understanding why or believing in the love is enough. Some things just can't be recovered from.

I agree with Kelasher--I think Eric does truly love Sookie.

I haven't watched any TB Season 2 episodes yet--based on the first season though, Bill does come across better than he does in the books.

D- Sorry, I think Eric without his memory loved Sookie, and he kinda remembers that, but I think Eric, a Big Vampire is just drawn to her. Now, Bill really loves her. I think he HAD to do what he's done in the past, but he loves her. I still think he will die in the end though. Wish he wouldn't, but....

K- Why do you think he will die? I've heard Charlaine Harris does kill off major characters sometimes, but I can't see her killing Bill.

D- No, she won't kill him. Maybe if the series had stayed as light as it started (yeah, people died, but they were unknown victims), he would have lived and they would have had a HEA. But I guess my American lit classes are kicking in and, as much as I like Bill, the question is has he been able to redeem himself enough to have an HEA? He's so tortured.... sigh. Now, I can see Eric surviving whatever epic showdown is coming with the forces of *evil* and though he will lust forever for Sookie, he's not the one with whom she will find happiness. I wish it could be Bill.

M- Of course, Eric or Bill will die or something bad will happen to make one of them unacceptable enough that we won't cheer them on. One of the chief complaints about Meyer's books was how easily Bella and Jacob became friends after the final decision. You can't be friends with someone who has been a major competitor for your heart.

With Bill's willingness to die for Sookie, he can't lose her and accept it, so the option is he wins her or ultimately dies for her. He won't simply walk away and accept her love of another man.

Harris is willing to go dark. She's willing to kill off a major character for the plot. I can see it happening. It's not a done deal, but it's a possibility.

M- OK, here's my two cents: I don't think she will end up with Bill or Eric in the end (at least not as the characters are now, they are both too flawed.) I think she will end up with someone else. . . Sam perhaps. I have already told Mel that I love Eric, but if Sookie had a chance with Sam, I would drop Eric in a heartbeat. He is just too sweet. He lets her be herself, he understands her problems and does not try to manipulate her. He cares about her, but still lets her make her own mistakes.

What do you think?

"The Moment"

I had "the moment" this weekend. You know the one I'm talking about. "The moment" you realize your body is not keeping up with you. I know many will say I should have caught onto this a while ago considering my many injuries, but really it did not happen until this weekend. Through the years, I have pushed myself though I tore a tendon in my thumb doing judo, torn the ligament in my ankle while hiking, injured my back several times, wear "ugly" shoes for my heel and ankle problems, and recently the wrist and elbow injuries thanks to overuse. None of these created "the moment" for me, until Sunday.

I have increased my workout routine trying to get back into gear and have suffered through sore knees, thighs, and shoulders. Not a problem! I tried a new exercise that left me flailing on the ground in pain unable to move except to whine. I managed to reach for my cell phone at one point, but wondered who I could call. I mean it would be embarrassing to have someone find me laying on the ground writhing in pain. After a while, I was able to stand and walk off some of the pain. Today, I am still feeling the effects of my injury and am left wondering if I have pushed my limit of endurance.

For those who are curious, the animals were no where to be found. They didn't come out of their areas to check on me to make sure I was okay. How's that for love?

What Goals?

It's midway through the year hence time to review my goals. I'm a little scared to see where my priorities have shifted.

1. Travel
I've been to Michigan, Florida, North Carolina, Illinois, and Ohio this year, so I've met my 4 trips plus one goal. Also Michelle and I will visit Chicago again this fall along with the hubby and I continuing our hiking expeditions, so I will exceed my plans.

2. Writing
Even with the injury I have finished my second story and am currently editing and cleaning it up. I've had 4 people review my first work and have now shut it away for the time being while keeping their critiques in mind while looking over my current work. I want to alter this goal to incorporate finalizing the second story and having people review it before the end of the year.

3. Workout
What workout? With the wrist and elbow problems and resulting stomach issues thanks to the pain medicine, I had stopped working out and met my all-time "Indiana" weight, not to be confused with the all-time top weight. I have started another heavy workout routine this week, plus hubby and I have been hiking again, so maybe I can get back into the groove.

4. Society Membership
Once again, I have dropped the ball, but not intentionally. I really was making an effort, but certain (clearing my throat) family members have not sent me copies of specific documents.

Curious how it will end.

Queen Cleo

Queen Cleo visited the vet this weekend for a routine physical. Usually these visits are very harrowing experiences, but this year there was no need for sedation. Always enjoy a visit where the cat doesn't destroy something in the vet's office. All around a clean bill of health with the exception of her obesity which is causing her some wheezing.

Apparently, the diet food and limited portions has not stopped her weight from increasing and we were told to limit her food intake further. We practiced it this weekend only to discover she can tell there is less food in the bowl. She was knocking her bowl around at 11:00 last night demanding to be fed. The hubby and I have different views of how to handle the situation. He thinks we should let her be happy and feed her our previous limited amount. I think we should try the new method for a while and see if she adapts because I'm worried about her. What do you think?

Birthday

I'm a little delinquent in this post, but I couldn't get the new camera to download correctly and had to wait on the pic. I have to thank everyone who sent cards and well wishes, it was so thoughtful. I had a wonderful birthday this year, besides the hubby taking me hiking and dinner, I spent the day at work with friends and had a nice night out with the ladies. I received a wonderful batch of cards from friends. My top 3 are from dad (about my stubbornness), Becky (sexual innuendo), and Michelle (great friends).

Dinner was fun and we had a great chat that included 'ugly-sexy' and 'creepy-good'men among our many quips. Delia, is a peach, who organized the dinner and took pics for me. She invited Kay, Sarai, and Becky along. Way too many laughs at the table and our waiter abandoned us at some point.

The best phone call I received besides the one of mom singing was from my nieces. The eldest niece informed me that she saw on a tv show that "30s isn't that old anymore." My youngest niece made me choke up with tears. She had undergone surgery less than a month ago that would improve her hearing, which would lead to her talking. She was on the phone, garbling at me when she said "I love you." It was so touching.

Plans for next year are big! Crystal, my other June pal, has a grand plan of us traveling for our birthdays next year. Thanks for great memories this year!

No Injuries

The hubby and I drove to Ohio to go hiking at Whipps Ledges, a place Sara P recommended. Besides having a lengthy car ride, which hubby likes to complain about, we had a good time. We chatted while he remained awake, otherwise I cranked up the radio and sang along while he slept. The hike had some beautiful views and some interesting "climbs" over tree limbs, trunks, and rock formations. I am notorious for injuring myself on these types of trails and the hubby was concerned with me climbing the rocks, but thankfully everything went well. The hubby had fun as we wondered off the main trail onto some side trails and stumbled across a snake. For those who know me, I have a crazy irrational fear of snakes. If I look at one I freak out, and after a bit of hysterical hyperventilating we continued on. Perfect weather and perfect day, plus no ankle twists, torn tendons, scraped hands, sunburn or anything.
(The pic is of me on top of one of the ledges, it's hard to tell how high up we are.)

Family Memories

While listening to Sister Hazel's Champaign High this weekend (great song by the way), I had a trip down memory lane. With my birthday coming up, I keep remembering other great birthdays and listening to Sister Hazel takes me back to a nice one. For my 24th birthday, I was in a horrible place being recently divorced, in a downward spiral, trying to figure out who I was and how my life had become a mess, basically, lots of self-pity.

My siblings decided to surprise me and take me to dinner and a concert. They had discovered that Sister Hazel would be in town the night of my birthday and got tickets for us to see them. Now for anyone who lived in Gainesville in the 90s, Sister Hazel was big! They had a song in the top 40, another song on a movie soundtrack, they were on their way up. To me, they were the nice guys who came into the copy store and chatted.

I went to their concert with my sibs and made an absolute fool of myself, dancing in the front row and singing at the top of my lungs. We ended the evening out at Benningan's and had a nice meal. It was a wonderful time and a moment I needed when I was in such a dark time in my life. This is my last good memory of my brother, which makes it more bittersweet (do the math). So thanks for the stroll down memory lane and here's to melancholy wishes that things were different.

Muse Gone

As a writer, I have read and heard that certain situations or people will inspire an idea. Just little things that trigger the spark. I once saw a show where the writer used situations and people from his morning routine and created a story about their lives without ever knowing the people. I never really thought I was capable of it until this year.

While working on my first project this past winter, I was struck by inspiration. I watched a band perform when the drummer was brought to the front of the stage and explained he was going to sing a solo of a song that inspired and moved him. I was so touched by the end of his performance, I was tearful. I thought...he's my next hero, this man who can pour his heart out in a song.

I was determined to finish my historical project and tried not to think of the new story that was playing in my head, but finally caved and created the character Nick, who of course sings a solo performance that has such a passionate effect on my heroine.

Two weeks ago, I saw the band perform again when it was announced that the drummer was leaving the band. I'm sure my mouth gaped open because I kept thinking...I'm not done, Nick had yet to win my heroine over. The drummer went front and center on the stage again and sang the same song from this past winter, but this time the band accompanied him. I'll admit, I was brought to tears at the depth of emotion the drummer poured into the song. Can you guess the ending in my story that I finished this past weekend?

Birthday Girls!

June is a busy month for me since I share the birthday month with Erin and Crystal. All of us have birthdays at the end of June, though those birthdays are important to me, two special girls keep me busy with birthday surprises. I have two very distinct but special relationships with my nieces, N and C.

My sister and I were not friends growing up or as adults, but when N was born, our lives drastically changed. My sister and I suddenly both found ourselves single and her raising a 6 month old. We became Oscar and Felix and lived together as the odd couple raising N. I had the joy of being involved in all the big events in N's life and playing pseudo-secondary-mommy as well as aunt for 2 years off and on. Though N is in her pre-teens now, I still view her as the curly mop headed child who used her fries to eat ketchup, who bounced to Mambo Number Five, who used to chase the ducks. Well, you get the point.

C was born 3 months before I moved up north and only sees me every 6 months. She's terrified of me every time she sees me though she recognizes me from photos. We have a unique relationship in the fact that I was one of the birthing coaches on the day she was born. Watching a child come into this world is a moving experience that I was glad to share with my sis. I shared C's first night in this world, staying in the hospital with my sis to help her with the baby. Once again, I got to experience another aspect of motherhood with another beautiful niece.

Both of these girls have greatly affected me and brought such joy into my life. My relationship with both is uniquely different creating a special place in my heart for them. I'm glad I get to enjoy June birthdays with them! Happy Birthday!!!

(out of respect for my sis, I have not mentioned my niece's names)

Out of the Mouths of Babes

My oldest niece, N, and I have a unique relationship, which I'll explain in another post. Since moving away, I have wanted to insure she knows I still think of her and with her being a pre-teen, she's too busy to talk to me on the phone. With all my traveling, I want her to know she's on my mind, so I send her a postcard every time I visit a new city. My sister has been keeping the postcards for N, so when she's a little older she'll appreciate it more. Upon receiving another postcard last week, N told my sister, "she travels a lot." I know this is a statement many of you have said to me before, but I found it more humorous when a child stated it.

(out of respect for my sis, I didn't use my niece's name)

Catherine & James Wedding

This past weekend James and I attended a wedding in Chicago for Catherine and James Pickrel. It was an interesting invite for us, since we were attending as friends of the parents of the bride. I hadn't realized I was old enough to fit into this category yet, but gladly attended to support my friend, Delia, and her family in their happy moment.

The beautiful ceremony was held in a Lutheran Church. The bride was absolutely glowing as she entered the church. The groom became choked up upon seeing his bride, who spoke with a quaking voice as she said her vows. It was truly emotional. I thoroughly enjoyed the personal comments thrown into the ceremony, especially involving college teams and their enemies. The bride and groom met at Oklahoma State.

Following the ceremony, we all headed to Wrigley Field for the reception. The wedding cakes went along with the baseball theme, as well as hot dogs as a specialty for dinner, and baseballs as the party favors. It was a truly enjoyable evening. Be wary of telling the mother of the bride, "it was a beautiful wedding". The comment can lead to a few tears. Also, watching the father-daughter dance was another teary moment.

Catherine and James looked so happy together and I wish them a wonderful new beginning!

New Moon Preview

THE TWILIGHT SAGA: NEW MOON trailer in HD

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The New Moon preview has been released and I for one am excited. It is a little disconcerting that they just finished filming and are already releasing material, but I won't complain too much. New Moon was not my favorite book since I am Team Edward and it is a very depressing story. I enjoy the growing friendship between Bella and Jacob; and am amazed by the back 1/3 of the book. Seeing the preview for the movie, insured I would be there opening weekend to see the movie.

The special effects and make-up are much improved from the first movie. Yes, I'll admit Taylor looks really nice as Jacob, but I truly like him as the character. I am concerned with the piece from the break-up scene. I hope there is more emotion in the actual scene because it was heart-breaking in the book (I know for Team Edward only), but it reminded me of some bad break-ups I've had and that horrible resulting feeling.

Here's to looking forward to more previews and November 2009. Tell me what you think of the preview.

True Blood

I went and did it...I discovered another obsession. Most of us have been reading the Sookie Stackhouse series and are aware that HBO created a tv series based on the books. Kelly told me I had to watch the show. Colette bought the series. Erin ordered it. Being a librarian, I read the reviews and decided to keep my distance.

Netflix delivered the first four episodes to me on Thursday. I stayed up late watching them because I was so engrossed. I have to qualify, a great many changes were done to various characters and their stories for the purposes of "good tv", but the heart is still there.

Actually that was one of the first things to strike me. Sookie actually emits more emotion in the show than in the books. She has true reactions expected of her situation. Even Bill is more personable. Most of you know I have been a Bill-hater until recently in the book series, but watching Bill on-screen, I can finally understand the appeal of the character. I'll admit I began sighing every time Stephen Moyer came on screen as Vampire Bill.

After reading the reviews, I was positive I would hate Tara and the fact that they have her in a relationship with Sam, but the story felt right. I won't deny the scenes involving my least favorite character, Jason, leave much to be desired. I began debating fast forwarding through his scenes because I know he's a male slut, but it was a little too graphic for my taste. Lafayette is truly enjoyable and more vivacious on-screen though we know how he ends.

Alan Ball, who created the show has read the books and is friendly with Charlaine Harris. He expands on the stories we peripherally hear about from Sookie, since the books are from her point of view, but he has much respect for the storyline from the books. The big revelation of Bill's motivation that is revealed in Book 6 is hinted at throughout the story and Ball says he will stay true to Sookie's storyline.

Overall a great tv series. I'll even go further and admit, I couldn't wait for Netflix to send me my next discs and bought the set on Friday. I know, yet another obsession. I have to ask, what is it with vampires? What was your opinion of the show? Did it do the books justice?