At the beginning of the year, I had such drive, such focus. I thought for sure 2010 would be the year to complete my goals. Little did I know, 2010 would be the year that made me question it all and second guess myself. I can't wait for New Years Eve because I plan to kick 2010 out the door. We know 2010 was the year where I struggled with major life decisions, faced numerous medical pitfalls and my own mortality, along with debating every aspect of my life.
For the moment, I want to focus on the goals I set at the beginning of 2010, before I knew life would take a drastic turn.
1. I had planned four trips this year, but only took two. I went to Salt Lake City for a genealogy conference and spent the fall in Florida for my mother's birthday. I enjoyed every moment of my time with family and friends. When I bailed on the birthday trip this summer, Michelle flew up to the Fort to visit instead, providing me with many memories of our girl's weekend.
2. I canceled my plans for the writing conference, therefore did not meet with an agent, but it worked to my benefit. During my bleak period, I tried my hand at a new form of genre writing, in which up to this point, my reviewer is enjoying what I've completed. I also participated and completed (aka won) the NanoWrimo contest this fall.
3. I didn't make new friends this year, but I did join a knitting group. I still hope to join other groups in the future and expand my horizons, but I have to say I feel very satisfied in my friendships. Without my wonderful friends this year, I honestly wouldn't have survived. They got me through many dark moments, attended appointments with me, and handled many late night calls. I have the most amazing friends in the world. They are family to me. NYE is special this year because I plan to spend it with my two best gals, who made my life bearable by supporting me this past year. The only thing missing on NYE will be Michelle.
4. My final goal was to make a decision involving children. I feel comfortable with the medical decision that was required of me this year. It wasn't an easy decision, but I can live with it. I may change my mind some day, but considering I had no other option this year, I am accepting. I can't deny my heart breaks during certain moments, like when Cheyenne says she loves me or David snuggles up to me for hugs or I see pictures of Ian, Zoe, and Audrey, but I made the best decision for myself.
Last year's goals weren't met, but they taught me a good lesson. I know this post seems a little melancholy and it is. 2010 was a year where I learned a lot about myself and the world around me. It was not an easy journey by any means, but I'm pleased with the ending. I'll think hard on my plans for 2011 because it will be an amazing year.
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4 comments:
Well, it SOUNDS like you did a lot this year: 1. You went to SLC & FL. Sounds good to me. Plus you had visitors from FL!
2. You experimented with your writing and got closer to being published.
3. You valued the friends you have.
4. You didn't freeze and not make an important decision. Dithering is a negative action. You made a difficult decision.
5. You survived, and though dealing with difficult issues, you survived.
Goals are meant to be a place to aim for. If you achieved your goals every year, you'd be unbearably smug. What's that saying? "Aim for the stars and maybe you'll reach the sky."
Listen to Delia . . .
Becky
Don't make so many goals...a human being isn't capable of so many. And, you did continue to write!
U are one of the people that I look up to the most. I think one of main reasons for that is that u do set goals for yourself. And that u do not mind too much when those goals are not met. U just try to do better next year. I think u accomplished quite enough in the last year considering all the medical issues u had to deal with. Love ya babe! Mich
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