Sisterly Love

I have to say, I truly appreciate the comments I've received concerning my New Chapter post. One person told me, "about f*#%n time." While another person texted me, "I wanted to say so much, one of the things I love about your blog & u! is your honesty." So thanks for the kind words.

So I decided to spend my Thursday afternoon with three of my favorite people, Erin, Ian, and Emy. Erin had not realized what a tomboy I was until I started discussing He-man and Skeletor with Ian. Using chalk, I drew on the ground with Emy who is a snuggler. We played for a couple of hours and I left with some very fond memories. Ian holds a special place in my heart because of an incident following my hysterectomy, so I loved reading him a story while snuggled on the couch. I also was near tears watching Emy walk. She has such amazing strength, just like her mom. My favorite message of the day was from Erin that Ian had wanted me to come back over.

Mich and I had one of our three hour phone conversations the other night. Lots of deeply personal discussions concerning some of my recent epiphanies including my analysis of each of my close relationships. Mich was afraid of how I viewed our connection, but my response caused a huge laugh followed by some gushy girl talk.

This is in comparison to my conversation with my sister. Yes, I finally spoke with her. For those who aren't fully aware of the recent drama, here is a short synopsis: My sister sent me messages saying she was cutting me out of her life; that I have never done anything to help her or my nieces; that I tease my niece with plans then bail on her; that I spend more time with friends than family; and that I am a negative influence in her life, just like her ex, Adam, who was a bi-polar addict who physically attacked her and emotionally abused my niece; and much more.  This was all a bit much for me to take this year.

My sister was diagnosed with a neurological disorder during conference week and no, it's not the same type as mine. I can be understanding and supportive but I am amazed at the depths of my pain. As family, she gets another chance in my life, but it's unclear if I'm capable of getting past this.

The dynamics in my life are definitely changing. It truly is amazing how one kind word can get you through the moment. Erin's message about Ian helped me bounce back after conversing with my sister. So I'm going to enjoy these reminders of how blessed I am with the people in my life.