Ego Has No Place

Recently I have found myself dealing with a wide variety of people, personalities, and egos. Though I recognize that each of us have different backgrounds and histories which lead to different perspectives and beliefs, I have never understood the need for some people to act so prideful that they become walking egos.

I have my reasons for being a very prideful person but I try to temper it with some humility. I admit to a certain level of a well-deserved and hard-earned ego. I am the first is my father's family to ever attend graduate school and the third to complete high school and college. This is a source of pride for me since I grew up with old fashioned grandparents who regularly instructed me on my role as a female and the fact that book-learning was a waste. This was followed by a seven year relationship with someone who admitted to being threatened by my personality and decided to suppress me. By no means do I believe myself an expert on relationships, but I have enough experience with bad relationships and self-analysis that I recognize certain behaviors quicker than others. In essence, I have great pride in my education, my career, and my relationships.

For all of these reasons and many more, I cannot fathom why I continuously meet individuals who are complete blowhards with no substance or those who build themselves up by beating down other people. Over the years I have been privy to some individual's deep dark secrets which have made me question these behaviors further. Don't act like you are better than others because you never know the truth behind the facade, while others may be fully aware of your secrets. In the past I have worked with colleagues who did not realize I was knowledgeable of their habit of inviting third parties to share their marital bed. I had another colleague who do not realize that people knew his credentials were works of fiction. And of course there was the colleague who eventually discovered her boyfriend and I knew each other intimately from years before and that I had firsthand knowledge of his kinky interests.

A few months ago, my friend Harriet posted a message on Facebook thanking those bitches who treated her like shit and forced her to leave. Harriet and I worked together at Hell. We were continuously put in our place by our so-called betters. In a three year period, a group of us left Hell after being told how inadequate, unprofessional, and incompetent we were. While David and company remain at Hell, Harriet travels the world, Adam is a director in FL, Andrea is an associate director in CA, Jill is happy in PA, and I am in my perfect place. So I'd highly recommend checking the ego at the door.