Speaking in Cali

I debated how to begin sharing my California adventures; should I start with the conference or my vacation? Since the purpose of my trip was to speak at Jamboree, I guess that is where the story will begin. Remember my fear at the idea of standing in a room filled with conference attendees, especially those who I respect and have long listened to in rapt attention. Well that fear disappeared when I entered the room for my first session and saw my boss, my mentor, and two of my reps chatting in the room. As I approached the podium, a calm settled over me and I felt self-confident. Even when things went wrong with cords not being properly arranged or confusion over the multiple microphones hooked to my outfit, I stepped back and let the techs handle the situation with limited ruffled feathers. My first lecture was video recorded and is available on DVD while the other three sessions were audio recorded. Shockingly enough, this didn't disturb me as much as I expected and my voice never once quavered. I had reviewed my lectures numerous times, so I was ready. And yes, I lost my place a few times, but it was never truly noticeable except maybe to those who know me well.

My most interesting session was held in the pavilion, with a room capacity of 220, two projection screens, a stage, and some very hot lights. I was quite uncomfortable. The air conditioning blew out from the stage area towards the audience making it difficult for me to hear the sound system and not providing me with any relief from the heat. Between my elevated body temperature which is typical when I speak, the lights, a crowded space, and being in a tent in California, I was unbearably hot.

Though I received many glowing compliments from session attendees, I was also attacked by other egos. One particular person was vocal that they would not attend my sessions since that person was the subject expert and the person couldn't understand why I was asked to speak. And then there was the person I have called my "hater." After my first session, she felt the need to tell me that my lecture was too general and she knew all the resources I discussed so she decided to work during my lecture. She approached me again two days later before the session to ask if it was a beginners class or if she would learn anything since my last lecture was too general. With each of these incidents, I was graceful and polite. I gave professional responses which the people did not deserve though you know the response that was playing in my mind. I truly can't understand people who behave this way because I am completely accepting of suggestions or constructive criticism, but I despise insults or questioning of my professionalism.

Jamboree is a proud moment in my career and though I missed having my gals there, it was intriguing to be supported by my boss at a non-work function. We were at this event as equals, which altered our typical dynamic. We socialized and supported each other as colleagues rather than as manager/ subordinate. Overall, Jamboree was an interesting experience and I'm glad I was asked to present. I needed the reassurance in my abilities and the connection with my peers that this conference provided.